These blue hospital chairs have become familiar to me. ‘Hospital blue’ is such a unique colour I’ve found.
These chairs have marked various steps in my cancer journey from the shock of the initial diagnosis, to treatment plans, to an early remission, to the news of the aggressive cancer returning, to surgery and stem cell transplant plans, to recovery and where I find myself now; 2 years and 5 months on from my transplant and cancer free.
I saw my consultant yesterday (all good news) and pondered on these chairs and the journey they have marked. My journey had fallen into three parts: fighting, surviving and overcoming and all have been necessary.
In the fight, my head was down and I was fighting with every breath in my body. My focus was the battle I was in and what I needed to do to find victory
I survived and began to recover but in that place of survival I still feared my enemy and lived in its shadow. I had to acknowledge there were injuries from the fight, both physical and emotional, and invest time and care into their healing.
Now I find myself in a place of overcoming. I have processed that fear, I can look my past events in the eye and not be scared of their hold over me. I can sit in this blue chair calmly and at peace and think ahead to how I can help others on their journeys.
As I sat here yesterday I was reminded too of the guides and companions I have had on my journey and I am profoundly grateful for them.
Fight. Survive. Overcome.
Where are you in your journey today?